Thirteen bears doing the cha-cha

So yay! We have a three day weekend plotted up for us. HOwever, mine is already filled; I hate being rigid like this sometimes

Basically tomorrow I get to help my coz move all his uber-heavy stuff from the back of the uhaul trailer into their new place. NOw I've been in weight training for about three weeks now, but frankly I don't think I've made any improvments in that short time.

Water break

And then Sunday I have hw and maybe, MAYBE go bowling with my mom. Besides I gotta go and get my ball custom fitted. It's a 15 pounder with blue and green swilries kinda like the earth and it glows in the dark. Now only if I had another... j/k.

Then Monday I get to see some movies with my good friend Kelsi. She's alos my Spanish partner. Thechnically, we're both gringos, though it can be argued that I'm less than she, but the fact is yo no ablo espanol gouda. Groups things are always cool, but they dont let people be to themselves at all, not that I'm applying anything, mind you.

Anywho I revised my introductory poem for myself for Clifford's class, and I love version 3 so much better. Why not, here it is:

Poem

If you wanna understand me, stop and take a blink
If you care to see how I think, stop and take a blink
What did you see?
I see what describes me in the only way I know how
I see an Asian woman taking a shower
Thirteen bears doing the cha-cha on a tightrope with a leprechaun of a ringmaster standing below
Stained glass windows being shattered into sharp pieces of jade and ruby and amber
And grass taller than anyone’s knees
I see grandparents dancing in the middle of basketball courts
Punch bowls telling tales of how the two met underneath the iron gazebos
Eagles caring for their young, only to fly away
Rooftop serenades in the middle of the night helping the restless city get at least a power nap
Blue people, red people all just trying to get along
I see myself riding an elephant the wrong way and having a blast
The time I went to Sedona and we drove over the bridge and it was so far down
I’m on top of a mountain and at the bottom of the darkest valley at the same time
I see the most beautiful shade of gray
Stars waiting to be picked up from the lost and found
Fortune cookies telling me all the things I already know
Monsters just wanting to be understood
Eighty-seven cartoons racing to get to the punch line
Unopened bottles of root beer waiting to be spilled
I see two empty cups
One for me
One for you
They’re the plastic ones with all the little grooves in between; mine’s already bent and yours is still virginal
But the bees have already gotten to the nectar
I see empires fall only to be revived by the might of one
Suicidal math equations wanting to be finished
The same paper done twelve times and getting worse by the syllable
I see a lot of frustration around me
Birthday cakes becoming too old before you even had the chance to enjoy them
And a lot of bridges
I see eyes that refuse to open
The bad guy running away with only half the loot
And feelings you can’t put on paper
Filters working way too hard until they give in and let all the particles free on bond
I see a lot of people with allergies
If I can see that with my eyes closed
Think of what you can see with your eyes open
But remember to blink at least now and then

Otherwise things are pretty bland. Gotta remember to take napkins for spanish, though. PARTY!!!!!

the rain

I love it when it rains. It's just the best, taking in a fresh whiff of the moisture in the air and the matallic scent of screen doors because you have to keep them shut or else all the mosquitos will come aftre you and give you the West NIle Virus and die or seomthing but it's the thought that counts.

So anywho, it rained in town yesterday and the day before A LOT! It was cool, seeing the streets turn into manmade rivers, people being recued from Broadway. So cool. It reminded me somewhat ofd when the power went out in the noertheast: how everyone just didn't go to work and ate pizza out onthe sidewalk and stuff like that. I think it would've been cool to be in that, but maybe that's just me, a return to the simpler things.

But back to the rain. I didn't start my hw well until 6 o clock because I was just listening to the rain fall and fill up nana's bucket 'til it was full and when the braches fell from the wind. Oh the foll-ee. BUt it was so nice, like someone was trying to tell the city, "HEY! Tucson! Chill out for a bit a'ight?"

A'ight indeed

But that was yesterday, and we still had school today, so I guess things are back on the typical path, cuz nothing's ever normal. And I think I have some AP physics hw to do si I'll start on that.

Sitting in the forest looking for the sun to come out

Hello. How are you? That's good.

So here I am, heading out into my only refuge in this world, and nothing will let me be at peace. It really sucks. It really really does. Stuck in a corner and the mousehole is already occupied.

So here it is Friday night and I can do nothing. I still have an uncontracted curfew of 7PM so I'm resorted to come to the same old watering hole even though it might be dry except you can't tell.

Even homework sounds enjoyable at this moment. But there's nowhere I can do it under these circumstances.

Ok so I've got family here again. That's why I wasn't in on Friday, to some effect. I mean I only got a couple hours of sleep. So that can't be good. PLus I overexerted myself on the very first day of weight trainng. Thinking I could do those exercises, with real weights? Hah! I'm so funny. So I didn't go in for a multitude of reasons, but now I wish I had because now I'm stuck in a 40 foot well and the 50 foot ladder is still on the grass.

I'm sorry for all the metaphors. They just come around. They just pop in and out of your lives and you don't really notice them when they're not around.

I'm sorry for all the personification or whatever the hell that word is because frankly I don't give a damn. I'm just bitchy right now. Bitchy mitchy sopmeone called me. Can't remember who at the moment, but it really doesn't matter.

A lot doesn't.

Maybe its just that I can't take any pride in anything anymore. I mean with the whole AIMS math test and like 10% got a perfect score. Yay! I tied with Mitch they'd say and they'd all be happy. It's just that I can't have a break. NO one will ever give me one, and then when I screw up on one question or something it must be the end of the world they'd say. God I just hate it so much.

I hate a lot of things right now.

All the things I learned aout being a man I learned in drama

So now that our first modular days have passed, allow me to showcase the major events that have occured.

Well, let's start with SEVEN IN THE MORNING AP physics. Woohoo! NOw I don't know why I'm complaining so much; I remember freshyman year when I took 0 hour with Roberts amidst all the then sophomores, so why does it stress me so now? Oh yeah, I used to be enthusiastic about school back then. But now that I can walk to school, I guess it's best on mom's part so she doen't have to be fully awake at 6, while I'm up at 530.

Then comes the theatre, my second home, or at least that's what the drama roadies call the theater. Maybe I'm just not as into it as they are. Bells rings. We act. Bell rings. On with life. But this year since Mrs. Green, the teacher, is with child, we're gonna have to take a lot more responsibility for the minor thinigs with the sets.

But this was the first time I ever used a power drill. Really. Now since I don't live with my dad, let alone talk to him, I've never been able to experience "guy" things like that. BUT THE POWER! I could drill a screw into a piece of wood! Feeling the motors turning in my hands, I realize what I've been missing out on. But then the bell rang

And skipping math

So now we're at Clifford for English, and I tell you, he's a kinda goofy, literate fellow. Ther'es a fridge door in his room, a big ol hankin' door, but no fridge! It's not cold. Weird. But I think I'm gonna have fun in there; there are a lot of people I know (and no to me the mini fridge is more of a toy than an appliance), so hopefully I won't mind it in there too much. Except the reading. I don't like reading as you fellow bloggers would know of me. It sucks. And no tapes on audio are just as bad.

Then PE comes around. I have weight training this year becaue frankly:

a. I need to get my PE out of the way

b. I'm not a fan of running

c. I didn't want to take 4th period calc.

Then I find out we have to take a warm up lap. Ooh boy for chef boyardee! Oh well. If it helps me bulk up then I don't mind, cuz I'm just a big weakling. Try and tickle me. You'd realize that.

Then comes lunch. Eating with most of the gnag from last year except they gt rid of my favorite tree; I liked that tree. Ok that was my second favorite tree; I'm not telliug you where my fav is cuz it's my friend. It listens, we play tic tac toe, it's rad.

Then Spanish. I miss Caballero, plain and simlpe. The fact that I have it in her room (though it is technically Rodriguez's as she was just out for a year) BUt now I hear that she got married so that's cool. But I just don't think I'm gonna have half as much fun I did in past years (Ok I kinda liked Destinos only because I've grown up in a household where telenovelas are just as much a dinner table topic as asking for seconds. So sue me)

Then APUSH. I'm gonna have a love-hate relationship with it. It'll be the little sister I never had. It's my time to watch TV now, dammit. I mean I'm already 1.5 day's reading behind (I didnt do the beginning of chapter one) and I should be reading now but it's like trying to climb the Empire State Building with 99 cent plungers tied to your feet. Hoorah!

And then I'll have to see about AcDec

So that's been my year so far. 4 days in and I already yearn for the days of the last day of school. I remember when I finished freshyman year, I was walking down the east hall, only myself and three other people in there because we finished our Spanihs final)iT was wonderful. I remember they plasyed Gren Day on the speakers for the seniors the day before.

I guess this is the time of our lives.

update

just letting you know that my coz (see a few entries below) says he and my aunt will take the trailer. Deosn't mean much, just passing the news along

Cannonballs

Damn I wish I wasn't such a pushover. I mean, I wanna take my own stand oonce in a while.

Well what I'm trying to say is I got forced into AcDec by, well, basically everyone and their second cousin. NOw don't get me wrong, I didn't not want to do Acdec, but I was still unsure as to whether or not I wanted to commit.

So now I've got (including A D) 8 ish periods, of which I could only attend 7, and then weight training is gonna waste me physically, so I'd be a walking zombie (granted I could walk) struggling to make it to all my classes on time.

And then there's history. My mom simply LOVES history. She would go and have an affair with it if she were married. So then why do I detest it so? I mean I took APCP last year mainly to get an idea of what an AP class would be like this year, and since I got a 3 on my AP for that I guessI'll do ok on APUSH. Just that I've NEVER been much of a reader. Sure I read at the 9th grade level or something like that in 4th grade but what difference does that make? I don't like reading. I find it boring. And then reading about boring stuff is just the pits. So mom can have her history; leave me the good stuff, and no not math. EW! Math.

And why are the lobbyists against Santa? Are they like PETA and need to know what happened to the reindeer?

the beginning of the end

And it goes downhill form here.

Damn we're uperclassmen now, and just 3 flashbacks ago we're sitting at the table right underneath the big tree playing Big 2 and I still never figured out how that game worked. But now there's no tree; just a humongous ramada that casts over our benches telling us that now playtime is over.

Yeah, I'm scared.

This year's just going to be entirely different. I can feel it. Something's changing us all and we are powerless to stop it. MAkes me feel so weak. It's that stupid purple wall. Now that it's set in, it can attack.

The school just has something missing from its aura, and I can't put my finger on it. I mean I'm sure I'll do fine in my classes, so that's not it. Just... something. Something's not right.

The void

Well, first of all, my commenting thingies are back and running, so that's good. And the best part was it wasn't my fault! Haloscan was going to a new server.

But now the dawn of doom is nearly upon us, and it seems that everyone's running off to the nearest shelter except nobody remembered to come get me. It's kinda weird. I mean it just seems that lots of people are distancing themselves from me and I don't know why. Maybe I shouldn't have started this blog and reveal myself. Maybe I shouldn't have logged in at all.

What I mean is I know everyone is going off and having some fun before school starts. I know some of my friends are going somewhere today to hang out, and I only found out because it was someone's away message on the AIM. Don't get me wrong. I just feel kinda left out right now. I mean I saw LXG last weekend with my mom, and we had a good time. But sometimes it just feels that people are only my friends so I can help them with their homework. And, well, that's not cool.

I'm here trying to think of the million excuses why people don't like me, while I should be concentrating on the few good points; but I've always been a pessimist. It's my nature.

Now if anyone reads this, please don't go, "Oh, I'm so sorry Mitch; here, have a cookie." because that'd only make me feel more pathetic than I already do of myself. I mean this is what blogs are meant to be for, explaining how you think and feel, and if someone wants to read it, then cool. If not, then that's fine.

Damn that felt good.

Where did they go?

Hey IU don't what happened to my commenting boxes; I'll try and reinstall them.

Mail day!

I've been getting a lot of things in the mail, both online and in the regular type. Hey, did you know that I need women's viagra? It's true, they said so. Though I have no idea who "they" are, but you get my drift.

Still getting chicken money from dad. It's called that cause we usually used that money to go buy chicken. But it's barely over a hundred a month. Child support. Woohoo!

I mean I'm just pissed at dad cuz he's more of a flojo than I am! I mean I live a freakin' 2 hours away from him and he's never even once ttried to contact me. Though I know there's a big problem, as in his wife. I mean even at my tata's funeral last year his wife was superviing him, it seemed, as to how much he could come in contact with me. Hey, I'm as much his kid as, well, his other kids are. So he and my mom didn't marry. So I was "unplanned". What control does she have over me? Now I've been living fine for 16 years w/o him, so I have no need to go rushing to his house. Sure I'm gonna invite him to my graduation, though I seriously doubt he'll go. And even if he did, I'm sure Martha's just gonna let him stay just long enough to hear my name. So when I see a door closing upon getting my diploma, I'll know he tried to care. Sometimes I just wish he'd be more of a man.

In other news, they want to publish another poem of mine from that poetry something or other dot com site. I kinda forgot to send in the confirmation paper for my last poem so I guess now they're giving me another chance with this one, "Piano Man," and it's not aout Billy Joel. I actually like it somewhat, though I had a couple typos in it.

And now I just wait for everything to happen; the first day back to school; my 17th which is in less than a month; etc. Great. TGime's passing by and I'm sitting down. Though I bought Final Fantasy Tactics for my PS2 the other day, and it's keeping me occupied. But I'm surprised I'm liking this game so much. It requires patience/ So maybe why I'm playing it now is because I know I'll have no time to play it once school starts. I mean it took me 4 tries to beat a party of 8 with 5 guys, and each battle took at least twenty minutes, so it's very time consuming. And there're the job classes. I don't know what to make my archer into next; he's too weak to be any kind of knight/monk/fighter person but too weak to be any kind of good magician. And he's maxed out his archer points. So now what? I'll try lancer next.

The run amok

I just realized how hectic getting to all my classes is gonna be. Ok well the first 3 aren't that big a problem as they're all on the main floor, but then I'm gonna have to go downstairs for zClifford 3rd THEN run upstairs and to the south gym for weight trainnig, then to the cafeteria so as to not get the bad leftovers. Then back upstairs and then backs downstairs to the basement. Geesh. I should get my PE crdit just for doing that everyday.

Also, I heard something about a change in the schedule from people, but the guidebook thingies weren't ready yet when I registered so could sopmeone explain to me what they are?

And why are printer cartridges 30 bucks a pop? Not cool.

Oh wow I'm kinda popular with this thingy.

Dang I seriously need to fugure out how to make links (WAIT! maybe I can put that on the side) for all the people that kepp mentioning me (and thanks) and so I don't have to constantly reminfd you to check out newgrounds.com or some other personal fav sites of mine. I'm guessing its got something to do with the template. Ok help me if u can

Double-wide (and no this isn't about me:) )

OK so again it is time for the continuing action of what happens when my coz comes to visit. As some of you might know, and the rest of you don't, my cousin Tony is moving down here from Texas to go to ITT in the fall. He's the computer person of the family. I'd ask him to help me with blogging and whatnot if he weren't so busy playing those games that are all like Starcraft but are cooler. He's playing some one called Lunar Project or someting. Basically the moon colony is, though it sounds kinda weird, trying to take over the world, as in earth. He just uses lasers and Boom! He wins. Now he burned me a copy of Starcraft with his overly mighty powerful computer, but I don't play it much. I just stick to the pretty basic stuff. PONG! ok maybe overly basic. Where was I?

Oh yeah so he came down with my aunt to look for a place for him and mybe her. We thought it'd be pretty cool if they could live at our complex, so we signed them up etc. But they didn't get it! ....

Ok branching out again. But I'm a gonna try and get back on track after I explain a couple things. Ok for youse peoples who have lived in the same house all their lives. When looking for a bad place, your credit history is VERY IMPORTANT. Even more thsn if you were a celebrity or something (We're sorry, Ms. Rider, but your credit history says you still owe $5900 to Saks, so we're rejecting you for this studio apt.) OK The reason I mention this is because I foiund out my aunt owed about 7K to an aprartment complex because she broke her lease agreement. BUT SHE HAD EVERY REASON TO! Here's the dilly bar (mmm... dairy queen): in about the 2nd month of their living at that complex, some no goods beat up my coz at the swimming pool; he had to go to the hosp and be admitted into ICU and eveything; and we got a phone call at like 2 in the morning so we to go ASAP. But fortuneately, he came out OK. Nothing broken, just he needed a little help walking aorund for a while. But so anyway my aunt got mad cuz she complained and complained and the complex didnt do anything. THEY STILL EXPECTED HER TO PAY FOR A MONTH WHERE HALF OF IT SHE DIDNT SPEND WORKING CUZ SHE WAS AT THE HOSPITAL! I think I can see their side (we cant make exceptions, etc) but that just wasnt cool, so my aunt packed up and moved to an old complex b4 the lease break came up on her report. NOT COOL!

... see, told you I'd come back. Anywho, they went to about 3 complexes total, all with different management groups, and they all rejected both. So we all felt pretty bummed. But isn't it weird how things balance themselves? That whole world equilibrium thingy. So a friend of my mom's happened to take up a part time job in real estate, so we called him up (his name's Fred) and asked him if he had anything. As a matter of fact, he did. So we went out way to the NW side (which was OK cuz thats where ITT is) and saw that he had a double wide (as in a trailer). It wasnt as bad as it looked, though. In fact, inside it was pretty darn nice. It had a HOT TUB! And it was affordable, too. 650 a month plus utilities. Well its a 3 bdroom cuz they have lots of stuff. But it was nice.

Except botho my aunt and my coz have had bad experiences with traiers (very long stories; they involve ostriches and cows, and I think this is getting long already), so I dont know if theyll take it or not; I''ll keep ya posted.

UHS 3.0

Great.... school's starting. Oh yay! VBunches of fun. (ten sighs in a row) Dang! I dont want the summer to be over! It just cant be! Cuz frankly it went WAY too fast for me. Let's see... I spent about a month packing, so no fun there. Then there was the actual moving in 100 degree weather. TGF gatorade! Then I had to see my aunt for her operation; she's ok. Then we came back and have done pretty much nothing but unpack and see 1 freakin' movie with my friends, and 2 with my mom. And now we're here. See, way back there, over the hills, that was my summer, and now we're at the McKinley that is school. (ten more sighs)

I wanna pout right now, cuz I feel so defeated cuz I'm still recovering from last year. And this year's gonna be a wonderful experience with 4 APs! So my head's gonna hurt. And then I have wght tr, so my arms are goinna hurt so I wont be able to pipck up my pencil so I cant take notes so my grades will be hurting and then I'mm gonna get mad and hurt someone else and WHERE DOES THE SUFFERING END??!??!?!? (2.5 more)

And then blogger hates me! I dind't do nothin to it except add that commenting thingy, which took me an hour and an online walk-thru with Elise (OH! THAT template! Why didn't they say so?)and then it goes and barfs on me by not publishing my things so time will only tell if thgis post goes thru or not, or maybe not since time would need a mouth.

And so my marathon of sighs continures hoping it rains soon, cuz like that one song I'm only happy whej it rains, I'm only happy when I'm constipated, or something lilke that. Plus I like the smell. Even better than a Welch's grape soda, I say. Wonder when they'll come out with carbonatd rain. Rain smell plus effervescence. AHHHH.

come on work here!

PLEASE!