guilty

I don't like the holidays. There, I said it. Sure, it's awesome not going to school and letting your parents treat you like you were twelve again, but there's only so much that you can take.

And then there's the whole gift aspect. I already told Mom what I want: a new cell phone and the Killers CD. But then at Best Buy today she keeps blabbing about how I should get myself a gift since I've been "good" all year. But I've never liked getting myself stuff, especially if its more expensive stuff. I don't know, I just don't feel like I actually deserve it usually. But, long story short, I got a Gamecube and am now 150 down the scholarship money drain. But now I feel guilty in a way.

I am not a ninja

the quieter I try to be, it seems, the more noise I wind up making. So I was trying to get ready for school, and my roommate Dan is trying to fall back to sleep. He's been under the weather lately and staying in bed a lot. So as I try to grab my pencil lead:

the pencilcase falls oevr and spiils everything onto the carpet
the alarm clock falls victim to the shower of schol utensils and moves,
sliding down the back of the TV, making a horrible noise all the way
the shoebox that was near the pencilcase decides to join the free-for-all
The antenna on my TV falls forward, yanking the cable until it gets taut and then clangs on the Tv screen, and, to add insult to injury
then Dan groans, defeating the stealthyness attempt altogether.

Needless to say it didn't turn out too well. But such is life. I really should start on my homeowrk. I mean really.

That warm, fuzzy feeling

OK so today I went and officially declared a math major on top of my Engineering. Trust me. It's doable. (I only have to take 8 additional classes- one computer java, one more gen ed, and like 6 more math classes.) it's still far from definite , though. I still have to schdule an appointment with the Engineering math guy and I have an appointment with my mechanical advisor tomorrow. Oh! I have this really sneaky plan. I think I'm 3 classes behind from being able to register for upper level courses next fall, but if I arbitrarily swicth over to Aerospace then I'm only 2 classes deficient, and that's good enough to take a couple of upper classss. and then worst comes to worst I can always go back to mechanical if I get tired of spaceships. But at least now I feel like I have a direction to aim towards, which in itself is its own reward.

I can't explain it, but I just felt so comfortable in the math bulding, kinda like that whole Mazlow hierarchy of needs. I feel like I have of belonging amidst all the rubik's cubes (I found a BUNCH OF THEM, and in good condition) and other math majors. Apparently the number of majors and double majors have increased a lot this year, so in that way its uncool that I'm just part of a trend (They say it's partially cuz of that NUMB3RS show) but then how often do I get to be trendy? And I got a B on my TRAD test, which is OK but since there are only 3 tests it's hurting my average a lot.

So things are allright. A little chaotic, but aren't they always. And the democrats won.

Shucks, have an Engineering Test tomorrow, and I have little idea what it's on. Oh well. I must be delerious and/or sleepy. Probably jljogvboerhghqh <-- Me falling asleep on the keyboard.

Also, in case you hadn't hard, I dropped honors chem from next semester due to my indecisiveness and am gonna take a substitue class next fall, a Materials Science class. In lieu of 3 credit hours I feel I needed to fill, I added linear algebra. so now I only have 1 class on mondays and fridays YAY!!!!!!!!!!! But it's the other side of Speedway, and my dorm is on 8th street. hooray for public transportation!