I feel so naughty

So i don't have enough money in my checking account to buy Guitar hero 3 and buy gas and food. So I figured I'd wait til January or Christmas, whichever comes first. But then I went to Blockbuster because I wanted to rent a couple movies (and I'm not sure why but I have been in a frenzy to watch movies by myself lately. Maybe it's cause now I can finally go see movies that I want to see even if no one else wants to see them. It's kinda liberating and separatist at the same time.) So I'm in line, ready to pay for three movies, when I catch with the corner of my eye the video game section. It can't hurt to see if they have the game, I thought. Besides, it would probably be sold out already. But no, there it was, front and center, one copy left of the Ps2 version.

next thing I know I'm at home playing GH3 for over an hour and a half. I mean of course it's fun, but do I really want to try and win the whole game in one day like i did last year when GH2 came out?

Um, yeah!

But I have homework that I should be doing this very moment. But at least I'm not playing GH. I guess that's good? I just feel like I gave in to something that I should have a sense of control under. And for that I feel like I did something naughty, like eaten a cookie from the cookie car while no one else was looking. Maybe I do need to grow up...

Things I always somehow forget

1. I have had this intense craving for chicken this week. don't knwo why. I don't want beef. I want chicken. I even had a chicken sandwich at burger King!

2. The tint on my sunglasses is beginning to peel off. I would like to analogize it to a gradual metamorphosis, slowly letting the true light come in, but it's taking way too freaking long.

3. I love my aunt. She's a little ditsy sometimes. She was telling us that she wants to go see a movie, about "that guy that wants to be a wolf. I think that's what it's called, Be a Wolf." I should go to Barnes and Noble and buy her the actual version.

Cool. Night!

lull

This is what you would call the calm before the storm, I guess. I haven't had any real tests for a couple weeks now (though I did have a PSYC 101 midterm, but that seemed pretty easy) so right now I'm just haphazardly doing homework at less than full capacity.

I drove to school for the first time. Man, free parking is hard to come by! Since I lived a couple blocks away for the last two years it became second nature for me to walk a little bit before getting to class. I miss that. I managed to park outside of my old apartment complex today. I just hope my car is there when I finish class at 8:30 or so. We shall wait and see.

Other than that, I signed up for my spring classes. (also, I got a second opinion about the "this spring vs next spring" argument, Shauna, and you may be right.) So I am signed up for PHYS 242 with Jackson. So that should be a pretty cool class. I admit when I took PHYS 142 independent study I would do the homework at the last possible minute and somehow do well on the midterms. I also signed up for Math 466, Statistics, and three more Engineering classes, two of which deal with labs, apparently. Ewww.

But I'm feeling claustrophobic at home. I need to go and do stuff with people. Sure, watching movies with my family is fine, but I feel very primal in desiring the company of others. Let's get food. Watch TV. Even just let me watch you play Halo. That'll work.

because you have to

why has my mom worked two jobs for the last 10 years when she knows that she needs the sleep? Because she had to

why am I forging in through the night trying to get these assignments done? Because I have to.

why is that I find myself magnetically attracted to my family, that no matter what they are always right beside me? Because I just do.

why am I smiling right now? because I am.

The second cave

I am not at all ready for my fluids test at 8AM. I have my probability test in the afternoon, which I'm not as worried about, but still stressed out over. I sure hope that Talea, one of the people in my Cali group, can finish our poster before the deadline. I hope I did a pretty good start, so hopefully she'll be able to submit it in time.

Results of cave number 1:

Psych: 100% (Easy as heck)
Vibrations: 78% (.6 standard deviations above average)
Mechanics: (EDIT: 93%!!!!) I might get a B in this class after all!

I am going into seclusion next Sunday when I get back from Missouri.