Three days of rain

I'm in that weird place again, the place where I am only comfortable talking about my feelings on a blog that nobody reads.

This has been a heavy week emotionally. With Valentine's Day and three days of rain and another school shooting, I have a lot of disparaging thoughts running through my mind. I saw of picture of myself and was legimately disgusted. I have been calling myself names. I worry about my safety in a city where "unimaginable tragedy" has hit twice this century so far.

I've had lingering headache on and off for most of the week. It's not as bad as it was back in October but I wonder if it's a caffeine thing or a water thing or both. Probably both.

I'm lonely but too lazy/afraid to do anything about it. I lose.