Sitting in the forest looking for the sun to come out

Hello. How are you? That's good.

So here I am, heading out into my only refuge in this world, and nothing will let me be at peace. It really sucks. It really really does. Stuck in a corner and the mousehole is already occupied.

So here it is Friday night and I can do nothing. I still have an uncontracted curfew of 7PM so I'm resorted to come to the same old watering hole even though it might be dry except you can't tell.

Even homework sounds enjoyable at this moment. But there's nowhere I can do it under these circumstances.

Ok so I've got family here again. That's why I wasn't in on Friday, to some effect. I mean I only got a couple hours of sleep. So that can't be good. PLus I overexerted myself on the very first day of weight trainng. Thinking I could do those exercises, with real weights? Hah! I'm so funny. So I didn't go in for a multitude of reasons, but now I wish I had because now I'm stuck in a 40 foot well and the 50 foot ladder is still on the grass.

I'm sorry for all the metaphors. They just come around. They just pop in and out of your lives and you don't really notice them when they're not around.

I'm sorry for all the personification or whatever the hell that word is because frankly I don't give a damn. I'm just bitchy right now. Bitchy mitchy sopmeone called me. Can't remember who at the moment, but it really doesn't matter.

A lot doesn't.

Maybe its just that I can't take any pride in anything anymore. I mean with the whole AIMS math test and like 10% got a perfect score. Yay! I tied with Mitch they'd say and they'd all be happy. It's just that I can't have a break. NO one will ever give me one, and then when I screw up on one question or something it must be the end of the world they'd say. God I just hate it so much.

I hate a lot of things right now.