Too damn long

Man, I can't believe it's been almost two months since I've had the time and the energy to say something. I know my traffic here has all but vanished. Blogs are so 20-00's, but then again I'm a stickler for slightly outdated technology. Hell, I used my CD Walkman on a regular basis until '07, and I am still hard-pressed to download music. I listen to stuff online on a modest basis, but still.

School is going all right. The second semester hasn't killed me yet. Just finished up a bunch of assignments for my main classes. Still have to write a report on a guest speaker we just had (though technically I don't need to turn these in until the end of the semester) and to do some research for my term paper project. It's an interesting topic, but I don't have the time nor the energy to work on it as much as I would like. It very much feels like I am chasing a wildfire rather than being able to get ahead of it. At least the backdraft hasn't been too brutal. But yeah, I'm exhausted. That's why I think I haven't been able to completely get over this cold I've had for like a month now. I haven't given in to coffee yet (besides, I don't like it), though the occasional breakdown is warranted, I think.

I'm trying very hard to find time between my new math friends and my old friends. The new folk need to rely on each other more, I think, so I don't mind when they go on crazy adventures and I only find out once someone posts the pictures online. Only thing that bothers me is now how many people are getting engaged, or married, or having kids, and in that way I feel completely out of the loop. I signed up with okcupid out of desperation, but I haven't found anyone here in Tucson that's caught my eye. I don't know. It's depressing. Plus I just don't feel like I'm ever gonna have the time to get into a relationship. It's always busy busy, and part of me likes it that way but the rest of me is desperately in need of a good chill.

I started a channel on Youtube. I have 7 subs, of which I know 2 are actual human beings. I just do random stuff. Try to play video games. Vlogs. Math instructional videos. Whatever floats my boat. It's a nice thing to do on the side, but I'd still much rather watch other people's stuff than have others be criticizing of what I put up.

I wish I had more time to think. I haven't had the time or the energy to write anything, though at least I'm trying to read more tabs on my guitar. Video games have taken a steep decline in quality time. I bought Super Paper Mario, and I'm hoping to get through that before Galaxy 2 comes out, though my track record with RPGs and anything resembling RPGs has been dismal.

I miss this place.