sex

Got your attention, didn't it?

Geez, I don't even think I've even used that word in a blog since senior year of high senior, when I had to rename my blog appropriately since I wrote it all the time in the school library. Let's check... ok I've used it twice, but it just goes to show how mum it is.

I don't know, maybe it's just me, but it always seems like the college "norm" is to go to big parties, get wasted off your ass, have some kind of wild encounter (and hopefully remember it) and hope that you don't get a phone call/ have to make that phone call six weeks later.

Long story short, a friend of mine said he may have gotten some girl pregnant. I didn't even know he was active. He says it isn't a serious relationship, more of a FWB case, but I don't know, it just got me thinking about how, well, single I am. I've never even been on a real date. Junior prom in high school was more of her giving me a ride to and from, although I did have the typical awkward conversation with the father (although it was more of a math interrogation). I don't know, I mean I'm pretty sure I'm, well, aroused by the opposite persuasion, but seeing as it's taken so long for me to find out, I'm starting to wonder.

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Apparently my third cousin died in a car crash last weekend up in Tucson. I didn't even know I had a third cousin. He was my age and all. From my dad's side of the family. I admit I lost touch with them once my paternal grandfather, my tata, died. We would always play cards, and he would always joke about how you can't spell Taco Bell without c-a-t. So I don't even know if they already had the service or not.

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I have no clue what I'm doing for this summer. I've been getting calls to have an internship in Cali at some big laboratory and work on cool stuff. Plus it's Engineering cred, so I was hoping I could apply some stuff and see if I really wanted to apply to grad school for math and/or engineering. But I have a commitment here with Dave. I went and saw him about it earlier today. He says if I don't get the thing in CA I can still come and work for him as originally planned. Dave is awesome.

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I just feel very lost and don't know what to say or do. Brent's facebook picture the other day said it quite well. I wish I could draw.