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I should be sleeping right now. I have a test come 11Am, and a hw set due in the afternoon, but this semester has been anything but routine.

As hinted on my Facebook on Wednesday, what I did was put an ad in the newspaper for Valentine's Day. It's pretty evident, the one that starts off "Nerdy, husky, single Hispanic male..." I don't front. I know the ads were meant for people to write little love notes and such, but I figured if anybody would be reading a part of the paper they'd be reading that part.

I had a bad dream concerning the whole ordeal this morning. I dreamt I saw my ad in the paper, and they had altered some of the words to the extent of "Horny, nerdy SHM in search of chick(s) to bang" and that freaked me out even more. What responses would I get from people? I dreaded going to class and see if anyone noticed.

But, lo and behold, no catches in real life. In a way I'm kinda glad I did it. I was so freakin' nervous even when I went to the newspaper office to place it. In a way I feel really rejected. Sure, it's not like I was waving a huge poster saying "DATE ME!" but still, I am rarely one to do something daring, I'm about as plain as they come, and for it to result in a pile of nothing and minus five bucks left me pretty blue.

So I was pretty emo for the rest of the day. Really Emo. Like ridiculously emo. If emo had a song named after it I would be its opening riff. I spent a good two hours lulling around campus, touching the cold, barren concrete walls, feeling the harsh winter air on my face, etc, all while trying to study for my Physics exam tomorrow. Not the best combination. Then after class I see little point in going to, I head over to the garage to drive home, and my car is the only one left on the roof. I try and fight it, but once in my car I just let out this big yell. It was good, yet painful. I still scream like a girl, though, so that didn't help the situation any. After some Chinese food and discovering a new game to play online (Yahoo Graffiti- it's pictionary online!) I feel a little better. I don't know, I really wish that this were something that would magically fall into place, but alas, not so.