Air of something out of sync

GAH! I need to do stuff with people! I'm drowning here in a pool of Engineering assignments that I honestly couldn't care less for. If I get a C in 324A I won't mind too much. It just bothers me how I have to struggle to find significance in Engineering this semester, and that's what's been bugging me. I'm 5 weeks in, ready to call it a day, wrapping up homework at 2:30 in the friggin' morning, I need to go with my mom to the doctor at 9AM because she needs to see a doc about getting her gallbladder removed. I hate having to be so concerned about her and her health, but then again I don't think I would have it any other way. I just hate seeing this cycle begin to repeat of me starting to take care of mom, drive to the store and get meds, etc. (And believe me, I think I've concluded that just as I don't like beer I really don't like driving.) just like my mom did for my nana. There was a Walgreens commercial I saw like a month ago. It showed this lady taking care of her dad, and you know how in Walgreensville whenever people run out of tissues they magically reappear? Well in this one whatever the lady did to help her dad feel comfortable somebody else did the same for her. Bring her some soup. Put a blanket on top. It made me cry because that's how I've grown up, helping my mom take care of herself as she took care of her mother. And seeing as she was almost ready to fall apart with me gone for six weeks in Cali, God only knows how she'd cope with me out of state. In that sense I'm glad I stayed here. It just feels like family always finds the opportune moment to pull you away from somethign important, so you do what they want and then forge into the night trying to not fall asleep. Next time I fall asleep in the library I gotta remember to take a pillow. Ow, my neck.

Ugh. But this is me yapping at almost 3 in the morning.

Fuck. I forgot about the job fair tomorrow.

I'm ready for school to be over. Life's got me busy enough as it is. I miss sleep.