holy crap I'm getting a car

Things are very backwards right now. That's about all I can say. One minute you're doing one thing and then the next something entirely different is happening. So I'm getting an '07 Hyundai Accent for junior year/21st B Day/Halloween/Christmas/flag day. I am afraid to ask my mom how she plans to pay for it. Sure I'm putting down 3 grand for the down payment, but I was looking to to spent 3000 total for a car, and then out of the blue we waltz into Jim Click and she's ready to go high rollin'. So yes I have a car now. Maybe now I'll feel obligated to get my license like I should have done only 5 years ago. Why is it that I'm only driven (get it?) by guilt? I do things so as to not disappoint others. I should be flipping out of my mind right now, but I'm not. I have a car, and a really nice one at that. And sure I want to drive it, but I just wish it didn't have to get to this point to finally convince myself to grow some cojones and just frickin drive. Now, right, backwards, very, are things. I would like to rant about the whole "credit" issue and money and debts and how I think it's really stupid (apparently my grandpa thought the same way) but it's 2:30 and I'm plum tired.

And, it's blue.

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Ok the next day I'm feeling a lot better about it. YAY! I'm getting a car! Holy crap! I can't wait. I was supposed to get it on Saturday but by the time we had finalized all the papers they had already taken it back to the dealer :( but I know exactly which one it is. No switcheroos on me, nosireebob.