not all country music sucks

Artist - Charlie Robison
Album - Good Times
Lyrics - El Cerrito Place

I been hangin' round this place, I been lookin' through your space I been waitin' for you, I've been waitin' for you All the places you would go, all the people that you know I've been lookin' for you, I've been lookin' for you And all them pretty people up on El Cerrito Place They all got somethin' in their pockets, all got somethin' on their face They roll down to La Brea where it meets the boulevard Singin' hallelujah while they dance over the stars They all think they're goin' far

Chorus: Me I've been lookin' for you baby, I've been lookin' for you baby I've been lookin' for you baby, I've been lookin' for you baby All night long, all night long, all night long

Somebody said they might have seen you where the ocean meets the land So I've been out here all night lookin' for your footprints in the sand Did you hear the ocean singing, baby did you sing along As you danced over the water to some ol' forgotten song, Were you even here at all?

Me I've been lookin' for you baby, I've been lookin' for you baby I've been lookin' for you baby, I've been lookin' for you baby All night long, all night long, all night long

Somehow I wound up in the desert just after daylight There's a Joshua Tree grows that little place you always liked These pioneer town people they ain't got too much to say and if they might have seen you they ain't givin' you away Now it's been two days

Me I've been lookin' for you baby, I've been lookin' for you baby I've been lookin' for you baby, I've been lookin' for you baby All night long, all night long, all night long

I think I'll go back to the city, back to El Cerrito Place That's the last time I saw that pretty smile upon your face

I've been lookin' for you baby
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I missed being able to go to RIce so I could go to UA Engineering Day. I'm sure mom's happy about that . I could be in HOuston theoretically right now. This better have been worth it.

Yes, the UA is the best choice in terms of overall potential and proximity not to mention money, but I don't want to stay here. But how much of this is my own selfishness and how much is it other's wishes? Mom always said she wanted me to go wherever I'd be happiest, and for her that means I stay at UA so I can have a tight knit family close by in case I need it, but for me that means figuring out my limits single handedly and the only way I know how to do that is to go out of state. I mean Houston's a straight ride along I-10- it's not the other edge of the world.

But if I go out of state, I know that means nana will die within a year. That's what happened with mom and granpa James. And, if this makes any sense, I want to get out so mom can live again. But, I don't know, every college that accepts me makes the whole process harder. In a way it would've been nice if Rice and RIT had rejected me. Now I never had any real intention of going to Rochester. I mean, even Devin is wearing pants and shoes up there. But still, the fact that the potential is there makes it that much more heart wrenching.

Apparently I should hear from MIT around pi day, 3-14 (teehehe cuz I'm a nerd). Right now all I want is some closure. If that's means MIT rejecting me, then that's fine. If that means them accepting me and giving an offer I can't refuse, then so be it. The last I want to do is make a decision about my life. It's like that "Escape from Fredom" lecture we had at the beginning of the year. If we have freedom, we want regulation. If we're regulated, we want freedom. Ther'es just no winning. I just can't win.