I'll see your packet of sugar and I'll raise you two packets of sugar

So today was the last day. The health final was annoying. In English I am a handful of points away from a B (stupid being sick on big essay test days!) and in Spanish we just couldn't wait to get out. Then we got out, I said a little prayer, and next thing I know I'm at TGIFridays with a few friends and a couple of freshmen who happen to be Tim Reckhart's brother Dan and fellow junior Lexa Perrian and her freshman sister Georgia. And we played cards, poker, and wagered on sugar packets. Georgia won.

And guess who was sitting at the next table. Come on, guess....


Fine, fine, it was Hosmer. Really. We all said hello quickly and then went back to our meals. He was with some business partner or friend or something.

But come tonight at graduation we shall take the throne. And it will be land. OUr turf. Our benches. Our territory. And it freaks me out.

've had some songs in my head. There's a term for that. But anyway these are them so they'll get in yours, too.


"Beautiful Letdown"- by Switchfoot

it was a beautiful let down
when i crashed and burned
when i found myself alone unknown and hurt
it was a beautiful let down
the day i knew
that all the riches this world had to offer me
would never do

in a world full of bitter pain and bitter doubt
i was trying so hard to fit in, fit in,
until i found out
i don't belong here
i don't belong here
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
but i don't belong

it was a beautiful let down
when you found me here
yeah for once in a blue moon i see everything clear
i'll be a beautiful let down
that's what i'll forever be
and though it may cost my soul
i'll sing for free
we're still chasin our tails and the rising sun
in our dark water planet
still spins in a race
where no one wins and no one's one

I don't belong here
I don't belong here
i'm gonna set sight and set sail for the kingdom come
Your kingdom come
won't you let me down yeah
let my foolish proud
forever let me down

easy living, not much like your name
easy dying, you look just about the same
won't you please take me off your list
easy living please come on and let me down

we are a beautiful let down,
painfully uncool,
the church of the dropouts
and losers and sinners and failures and the fools
oh what a beautiful let down
are we salt in the wound
let us sing one true tune

I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Feels like I don't belong here
Let me down
Let me down
Feels like I'm let down
Let me down.
Cuz I don't belong here
Please
Won't you let me down?


My Beautiful: - by Lennon (note, this is not JOhn Lennon, but rather this cool lady who's only like 20 and goes by that name)

Wake up every morning to the sound of the radio screaming/ 6:30, 7:30, 8 o'clock and I got to leave/ Walk out on the street with nothing on except the shame of last night/ And a number in my hand of a man I don't really need/ (CHORUS)- Where do I fit in/ Where is my place here/ What do I need to say, what do you want to hear/ Where do I fit in/ If she's in your bed/ Where is my beautiful/ (Verse 2)- Late night/ long day, doesn't make much difference to me anyway/ You called, I answered, but baby I'm only half awake/ Hush little one with you here everythings going to be okay/ Is all you say but what if things don't go that way/ (CHORUS)/ (Verse 3)- It's over, we both know, we're both tired of playing the parts/ I said goodbye, you said oh well nothing's really lost/ Call every now and then just to hear your voice talk to me/ You still say everything's going to be alright but it's not and that's something your too blind to see/ (CHORUS x2)




"Dare You To Move"- by Switchfoot

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
What happens next

[Chorus]
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

[Chorus]

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before


Here's something. I think it's coinidental Today is 5/20. 5 over 20, 5/20, = 1/4, and we have 1/4 more of high school to go through! Isn't that freaky. Or, as Devin Sanera pointed out to me, 5 and 20 make 25, and that's how much percent we have to go!!!!!!!!