Darwinism

HOwdy everybody.

Well, APs are well underway for most everyone, and frankly I'm feeling a bit whelmed. Physically and mentally. Had to run the mile yesterday to make it up from a month ago or so. SO that was tiring naturally for me.

I hate how these APs determine your fate in a relatively short time. You slave for months on a subject and it's all or nothing for credit on these tests and 80 dollars down the drain. BUt I guess 80 dollars now is better than a couple of hundred or even a few thousand down the road.

Anyway so I doubt I did well on the English AP on Monday. I'm pretty sure I wrote at least one if the essays wrong and the reading part is my worst; that's what hurt me the most on my SAT. I actually got nearly all the analogies and sentence completions. BUt stupid reading. SO I know what I need to work on.

On TUesday our group met together to film our video for Gatsby, our book. I think we did too much; we did pretty much all of chapter 3. Granted, it was shortened, but when Tarreyn was reviewing all of it I couldn't stand it. Not sure why, but I can't sound my voice when it's not coming from me; I think it sounds so weird. I was the Owl Eyed Man. And the butler. And MR mumbles. BUt we didn't get done til eleven. At night.

And my grandma's in the hospital. So I'm worried about that. NOt sure what's wrong with her. Something intestinal but something not intestinal. So this is the third day I don't have my nanie in her room. But as far as I know she should be coming out of it, so that's partially why I've been a bit distracted and farsighted- well, I can't think of the word, but TGIt's circulocution.

Then today was the Calc BC test. It was OK. Just OK. State math champion MItch can't remember a couple stupid formulas (which all formulas are, except for maybe PV = nRT) But I think, I hope, that I'll squeak with a 5. If you do really well on the Multiple Choice but mediocre on the free response then you're still in 5 territory. GUess I only have 2 months to anxiously worry about it.

Randomly, last week when I was sick, I had the TV on the jazz music channel and they played this old song by Sarah Vaughn (sp?) called Doodlin' and it was so refreshing, so simple. But I can't find the lyrics.

About the title. 2 things come to mind: Bush and stupid pigeons.

Again, I'm not a political person, but you know that commercial with the old dude saying if he can't go to Canada for his drugs then let the police arrest him so they have to pay for his drugs, that says that Bush is with the drug companies? Yeah, that one. Anyway, had me wondering if in some weird way Democrats are those that don't believe in Darwinism. A fair chance for all, whether you'd normally die or not, and republicans secretly practice social darwinism and natural darwinism, "only the strong survive," where only the strong, as in wealthy and deceptive and skillful, can survive while the rest get bad healthcare and HMOs? Just a thought. And I know there are flaws; I'm probably contradicting myself somewhere, but that's that.

Also, today after the BC test, mom took me to Sonic to get lunch. She decided it was cooler outside than in the cra, so sat out. A bunch of pigeons started eyeing us in that kamikaze kind of way. Well, most of them were decently plump, but there was this one that was thinner than the rest. SO naturally we throw it a french fry. And it walks slowly towards it, while the others spy it and are diving to it, and the fat ones pick it up first. So either this pigeon wasn't as hungry or he's got bad depth perception. Mom was calling it retarded.

And, yes, the AP for history is Friday. I know I'm getting a three. I know the stuff, but not well enough. Period. Hopefully I'll get a 3 in English, too.