A great time for second thoughts

Gray says MIT would be idiots to not accept me. The question is am I idiot enough to turn them down should I get in?

It's really funny when you get absolutely no encouragement to strive to go out of state. I'm still a firm believer that Mom insisted on paying the MIT application fee to make me feel bad about applying there. Now money's never been necessarily tight but I've always been taught to be picky on my spendings, but it seems that we never have any money for anything. Well I know where it all goes: into random splurges at restaurants and picking up on bills for my aunt. It's sad, she's the manager at a local aprtment complex, she lives there, and they don't give her enough to make sure she has enough to live on. Well, granted, she and my cousin are Fianl Fantasy JUNKIES, but that doesn't make them bad people. Where was I going with this?

I always thought I was fated to go to the UofA, and since 6th grade I've been trying to fight it. I want to get out of Tucson so badly so I can truly appreciate it. It's like that 80's song, "Don't Know What You Got 'Til It's Gone" once I come crawling back to Arizona I'll understand how wonderful it is. And you can tell me this a million times, but I have to find out for myself. I have to find out for myself.