how do I get myself into these things?

So next week is spring break, which means that next sunday is easter sunday which means that the previous sunday, today, is plam sunday. So I say in a passive manner to my mom, "Hey! Today's palm sunday, and we haven't been to church in a long time" (this is true, the last actual mass I believe we went to was the beginning of junior year, and before I went off for Cornell to visit in October we stopped by to take a generous portion of holy water*.) I had no inclination of actually going; I was just stating the obvious.

But then mom, realiznig that I'm probably gonna go out of state, says in a rather sudden matter. "You're right, we should go to church." So we did.

Now I went to Catholic school for 80% of my elemntary days (not fourth grade, long story) and achieved a basic rememberance of the church stuff. I remembered most of my prayers, phrases, and even when to sit down and kneel and get back up (granted, the rest of the congregation was doing it too so it kinda helped me remmeber) but it felt a little weird. I can't describe it. How can something I once believed in so fervently seem flawed now? The chant during the first readings was "Oh God my God why have you forsaken me?" and I know that's what Jesus said when he was on the cross and that jazz cuz I saw Passion of th Christ last year along with every other MExican family in Tucson, but why should we be asking this if we know that he is there. All I'm saying is why question him blahbitty blah in a group, and as a chant? HIstorical merit? Idunno, but it seemed awkward for me.

So is it, in religious terms, have I just lost my way by this confounded stuff we call science (kinda like Rocky in Ceremony [not the italian one]) or is religion just a whole big pile of hooey for people with hope and optimism and stuff like that?

* They had a FOUNTAIN of holy water near the main entrance. Were I still little, I'd think it'd be great that everyone could have more blessed water. As a teenager, I go WTF?! Doesn't that make it diluted?